*It's going to rain today, which is a good thing, but can some times give me a sinus headache, like today. It can go along with the pain in my wisdom tooth which comes out on Monday,(the tooth comes out, not the pain, but maybe the pain, too) but I'm concerned that the pain level will force an emergency extraction which will screw up the oral surgeons day and annoy all the other patients. So far the Aleve is working.
*Grief does not play fair. I do really well during the daylight hours, but the nights are not so good. My IBS has come back in full force, which I sort of expected. The attacks almost always happen during the night. I also dream disturbing dreams. Last night was sort of a ground hog day theme where every day I woke up knowing that my mother was gone, but find her on the fold-out sofa (which we do not have) and the visiting nurses or Hospice workers at my front door angry with me for forgetting they were coming. (Obviously I have issues with people being angry or annoyed with me.)
*I wish Mother's Day was over, sort of like my unhappy wisdom tooth, Monday is a long time to wait for something unpleasant to be over. All the MD hype is everywhere, TV, internets....I can't escape it. The first Mother's Day when you don't have a mother is a challenge. Next year will be better. This year will be ok, too, but a little harder to enjoy.
*And, from the seriously self indulgent and whiny department: I really need to clean the house today and I REALLY don't want to.
So there it is, proof that while I try hard to keep positive, some days are easier than others.
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