A few days have past, I've managed to get a grip, and life is beginning to look a little brighter. Amazing Husband has gone on a four day business trip, which isn't a happy thing (this is the first time in 9 years we've spent the night apart :-( ), but I'll be fine and the dogs will protect me. :-) Spent some time with mother this morning and learned that tomorrow she will be moved to her permanent, if all works out well, room at St. Anne. It was a lesson in the need to trust the universe/God and have faith that things will work out as they should. The room has a large window with a beautiful view of a small courtyard with trees and flowers and bird feeders. Her roommate is a sweet little thing who I think mother will do well with. We have not met one single staff person there that has been anything but kind and friendly. The nurse that takes care of the wing mother will be inhabiting has been at St. Anne for 20 years. That says something good! In the patience of time all will be well.
Now that she is settled our thoughts and hands have turned to emptying her apartment so her dear landlord can provide someone else a good home. The first few times I walked into the apartment without her I was overwhelmed with sadness, but I have learned that we are so much more than our "things". It's hard to let things go, but mother will be happy that my son Karl and his girlfriend have taken her favorite sectional and Kysa and her family may take the bedroom set. It will be perfect for a little girl someday. We know we are terribly lucky that there is only the apartment and not a house full of life memories to go through and get rid of. And, sad as it is, when she passes there will be little left to deal with.
And then there are you kind, loving, wonderful people. I have received comments and emails filled with such love and support that the tears turned from sadness to joy. I can't tell you how much I appreciate each one of you and the fact that you took a minute to say you care. I love you all.
So it is onward we go, navigating the bumps and bruises of life, but keeping out hearts and eyes open. For every sadness there is a blessing and I am blessed aplenty.
*Amazing Husband, if you are reading this. Come home safe to me. <3
"but I have learned that we are so much more than our things."
Wow...thank you so much for the reminder...what an example to all of us. You and the family are in my prayers.
Posted by: Sherise | April 07, 2009 at 09:42 AM
Hey, like I was telling you before, I'm availabe Thursday and Friday if you want to do anything together. Let me know if you get lonely! Love you!
Kysa
Posted by: Kysa | April 07, 2009 at 05:46 PM
Glad you are feeling better.
everything you have done is for the best.
Posted by: ruminations | April 08, 2009 at 10:30 AM
Tell us more about Tom's business trip.
Posted by: ruminations | April 08, 2009 at 10:33 AM